Colorado Cannabis Diaries 2

I made it back to the dispensary and this time I only went for the edibles. I’m excited to share the goodies I got, I definitely found some new favorites!

1. Incredibles- Mile High Mint Chocolate Bar

100 mg

*Attention chocolate lovers *

20170614_111949This is definitely something I’m going to buy again. Do you know those little Andes mint chocolates you shove in your pocket on the way out of a restaurant? This bar by Incredibles tastes just like them. Yummy. This chocolate bar was a hybrid and gave me a great buzz. After about an hour I felt energetic and happy, I usually went out for a hike after I felt these kick in. The buzz lasts for a good amount of time. Then I got a little case of the munchies, which is helpful because I’ve been having trouble working up an appetite lately. Definitely one of my favorites so far, these give you a happy little buzz. Good luck trying not to eat the whole 100 mg bar all at once, they are delicious.

2. TasteBudz- Gummies

100 mg

20170614_112012 1This is another one I’m sure to buy again. These gummies hit the spot. Unlike the Wana gummies which were spotty, I knew these gummies by TasteBudz would kick in in about an hour. The Wana gummies also gave me a different high every time and that was something I didn’t like. These gummies, which were 10 mg each, gave the same type of high every time. I got two types; a blue raspberry sativa and a tropical punch indica. That was another perc of these gummies; I got to pick the flavor. Most Wana gummies I see are assorted flavors and half of them I don’t like. These also had less of a weed flavor.

 I could tell these were strong and true strains; the sativa is an energetic head high that is great for getting up and getting stuff done. I often sat down to read a book, work, or do some sort of physical activity- yoga, biking, or hiking this sativa energizes you for it all. Exactly what you would expect from a sativa. The indica is a strong body high that really relaxes you. I’ve been having some trouble eating and sleeping lately but these strong indica gummies have really helped me relax and work up an appetite. Exactly what you would expect from an indica.

The gummies and chocolate bar were $25 each if I remember correctly. The TasteBudz are the same price as Wana gummies and in my opinion they are better. I will definitely be purchasing these again… after my next paycheck.

Summer Reading List 1

  1. Only the Stones Survive Morgan Llywelyn

I read this book in a day and a half. I couldn’t put it down and before I knew it, it was after midnight. I thought this was a wonderfully imaginative book, exactly what I was looking for. Like many of Llywelyn’s books, Only the Stones Survive is based off Irish myth and legend. Fleeing from drought, the desperate Gaels leave their homeland towards a rich mythical island. Legends say the island is full of gold and infinite riches. However, the island is already inhabited by multiple magical species and ruled by the Tuatha De Danann, a fairy people that live and communicate with nature. The ensuing story is one of conquest, struggle, and magic. I loved this book and wanted to reread it right after I finished, but instead I am going to read Llywelyn’s Druids novels.

  1. The Book of Madness and Cures Regina O’Melveny

The title of this book sounds more exciting than the story actually is. An Italian woman studying to be a doctor is obsessed with finding her father. Her father left 10 years ago to travel around Europe and complete his book of medicine. Without her father she is desperate, lonely, and unable to continue her practice. She follows his letters in hopes of finding him. At times, her obsession with finding her father borders on incestuous. Her journey was boring. I was hoping for a story full of adventure and travel but nothing very exciting happened. Despite hoping to finish the book as quick as I could, I struggled finishing it because I was so uninterested.

  1. The Fever Tree Jennifer McVeigh

If you’ve ever seen the movie Out of Africa then you’ve read this book. Don’t get me wrong it was a good book. A naïve, sheltered English society girl loses all she has and is forced to marry. But on the voyage to her new husband and new life in Africa, she falls in love with another man. She throws away all optimism for her marriage and hopes this more successful man will throw everything away for her. Nothing is how she imagined her life would be and she struggles with that through the whole book.

Colorado Cannabis Diaries- Week 1

Five days in and I’ve already had some great adventures in Colorado Springs. I’ve seen so much that has blown my mind, I’m amazed by the natural beauty that fills every inch of Colorado Springs.

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14,115 feet on Pikes Peak.

 

I’ve never even seen mountains before!

But forget all that, how’s the bud?

My mom told me before I left that my first visit to a dispensary will be like a kid in a candy store. She was right. In fact two of the employees came up and told me just that. And I didn’t mind it one bit. I really was blown away. I can just, like, buy this stuff? Legally?

It was a Friday afternoon and the dispensary we picked was full of people rushing around picking out their green goodies. I was awestruck. I don’t think I’ve ever been around so many cannabis-enthusiasts.

Sample jars of the various strains were on a large table in the center so you could smell and view your bud before you buy. What caught my attention was the wall lined with all sorts of edibles.

But then reality set in, as its fat head always does. Cannabis is expensive. I paid twice the amount I am used to. But I was proud of my restraint, I kept it under 200.

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Pre 98 Bubba. Hints of purple with a heavy dusting of keif.

 

I got 2 ounces of Pre 98 Bubba. A sativa I kept calling Buddha. It is 22-36% THC. I don’t know if that’s a lot but it is definitely some beautiful bud. Oh so dusty. It has a light appealing smell to it as well. How’s the high? Not bad. Definitely a clear head high; light, somewhat exhilarating, happy. The only drawback is that the high doesn’t last too long, I’ve noticed after about 40 minutes I’m coming down. But it is a light, nice high with a smooth taste to it.

 

Plus I don’t have an overwhelming case of the munchies. Bless sativa.

The next strain I bought was Purple Diesel. This one I really likey. The smell is

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Purple Diesel. Pretty orange hairs, hints of purple and plenty of keif.

 

wonderful. Now I like my bud to smell like bud, some people love the smell of Lemon Haze and other fruity strains, but I love the haughty smell of some fine marijuana. The smell isn’t overpowering, just right. It has a lot of beautiful little hairs to it as well as a fine dusty coating. I love the high this sativa strain has to offer.

It pumps me up man. It gets me going. The clear head high motivates me to get up and get active. Overall Purple Diesel is a happy little strain that I’d love to take out on a hike.

Last but surely not least, I got some gummies. The gummies out in Colorado are infamous for a powerful high. I grabbed some Wana sour indica gummies that were 10mg THC each.

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Wana indica gummies, 10 for $25. This pack of 10 had a total of 100mg THC, 10 mg in each gummy.

 

These were some sneaky little suckers. It was hard to predict when these would kick in, each time I ate one was a little different; the time it kicked it was variable and so was the high. Sometimes I could tell when they were setting in, with a nice little build-up-high leading to a really nice clear high. I love edibles. I prefer them and often make my own. I usually only ate one at a time but I found that, usually, the high was not as strong compared to the edibles I make myself. Next time I will get something stronger but I did really enjoy these. For me, the edibles-high is so different from smoking- no munchies just a clear, enjoyable high with an intoxicating case of the laughs.

My first experience at a dispensary was everything I thought it would be (minus the high prices). In the future however, I am going to find an alternative to paying almost triple what I’m used to. It’s no wonder this industry has already made billions.

 

Yoga Challenge

I quickly fell in love with yoga. The weightless, relaxing feeling yoga gives me has the power to change my entire week. However, starting my own practice has been hard. Mainly because I lack motivation. I don’t know enough about yoga to start my own practice. The yoga classes at my university gym are inconvenient and don’t feel intimate enough. The oversaturation of yoga “fitness” books on the market was not what I was looking for either. I wanted to find something I can connect to.

Somehow I came across a YouTube channel dedicated to yoga, Yoga With Adrienne. She could have gotten a little more creative with the name, I know. However, her teaching style is perfect for me; she doesn’t expect everyone to be an expert. Plus she makes some terrible puns that I actually enjoy. Adrienne has a 30 day yoga challenge and after watching a few of her videos I decided stumbling across her channel was a sign; to pick my butt up and get serious about developing my own practice.

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My hopes for the challenge are to develop discipline; we can all be more proactive about our health, especially me (the cheeseburger problem is real). My plan is to wake up early and do the challenge before I start my day, this will kick me into gear to tackle the day and get more done. My mornings have become the most special time of day; I sip my tea, I read some interesting articles, check out my horoscope, and get some work done. It has become a ritual and I’m excited to add yoga into the mix. Best part of the challenge? The longest video is 32 minutes, the videos are the perfect length to get some yoga in before work or school.

I also hope this yoga challenge will help me connect with myself spiritually. Yoga and meditation offer a sweet opportunity to turn inward and connect with the mind and body. Working out is great but it doesn’t give me the opportunity to slow down and connect with my body the way yoga does.

Finally, I hope to be inspired! This year is all about discovering my goals and setting myself on the path to achieving them. Pushing myself to do this challenge is a way to motivate myself in other areas of my life, the time I spend on the mat is a time of reflection that helps me step back from my nonstop day and look at the bigger picture of where I am and where I want to be. I hope that motivating myself to do this challenge will help me be a more proactive person, I am a procrastinator by nature, but setting the intention to practice everyday will help me cultivate the ability to motivate myself.

 

Bye

Our fingers intwine, hand in hand

But it was just a fleeting feeling merely another grain in the sand.

You were afraid, why couldn’t you say

That you wanted me to stay.

Now it’s time for our passions to rest,

But fuck, this pain in my chest.

The weight of another bleek day

It’s unbearable, I wanted to stay.

But you no longer want me around,

Because you’re afraid of the affection we’ve found.

I must take the winds as they come,

Giving up my heart to the sound of fates drum.

My disdainful days stretch like a grey, undying sea

What’s idly waiting in the future for me?

My heart is broken,

Alas, I must resend your love’s token. 

1.23.17

My Week Without Booze

One week down and I’m still here. I feel great actually. I ended up kicking it at the home front over the weekend with some friends and it was a relief to stay in my fat lady pants. I feel like I have a little bit more energy and a clear mind. I went on a little hike over the weekend and felt like I had the energy to keep on going. Whether that was the week without booze or the pompous amount of sleep I got over the weekend, who knows.

I feel a bit more in control of my anxiety, which is usually a struggle for me. My anxiety has been especially bad this month because of relationship issues. This was the main reason why I wanted a break from drinking- to give myself more control over my anxiety.

I didn’t miss hitting the bars with my friends and wasn’t really tempted to drink over the weekend. My only weak moment was last night. After breaking up with my boyfriend I thought, “man I could use a drink and a cheeseburger.” But I settled for the hot bath instead.

Even though I didn’t spend money on alcohol, the gremlin in me spent just as much (if not more) on food this weekend. I ate out a lot. Every night. Ouch. Food has always been a comfort to me, hell food is always there for you right? But as I am working on my anxiety I am also working to control some of my other bad habits such as overeating.

It’s been just over a week and I am looking forward to another week of no alcohol. I would like to keep this abstinence going for much longer but I will get two weeks first.

I usually roll my eyes at the quotes on my Yogi teabags, but I actually liked the one I received this morning, “Your potential self is infinite.” It was just a little something to keep me inspired to be the best version of me I can, even through the hard times.

NOT a New Years Resolution

I have been thinking about this for a while- giving up alcohol. I know, it’s something not many people in college would admit to thinking. After all, drinking is the number one social entertainment at most universities especially at mine, we have an entire season dedicated to drinking. So yes, it may be weird for someone who just turned 21 a little over a month ago to give up drinking, but after three years of dedicated drinking in college and one (or two) years of sneaking booze in high school, I’m ready for a break. I don’t usually drink in excess, but I have had my (embarrassing) moments.

It’s the second week of spring semester and I’ve already drank more than I did over the entire course of winter break, I hardly drank during my four glorious weeks of relaxation. I didn’t miss it either. During that time, I felt like I had a clearer state of mind, more energy, and I felt like I had more control over my life and my emotions.

Now, I don’t think there is anything wrong with drinking alcohol, but for about the last year, I just haven’t really enjoyed it.

Number one. I’m in college O.K. And I work hard to earn all of my money. I pay my rent and my utilities myself. Alcohol is expensive, whether I’m cruising the liquor store for a nice little somethin’ somethin’ to sip and relax in my fat girl pants or if I’m going to the bars uptown. It’s expensive. And there is no such thing as “having only one drink.” It doesn’t exist.

Number two. I like to eat. We all have habits that we don’t really have total control of whether we like to admit it or not- well mine is eating. I love eating. Drunk Hannah likes eating even more than Sober Hannah does. And guess what, that’s more money! Not to mention I wake up feeling like a heavy ball of gross because of the unwelcoming mixture of liquor and whatever grease covered, over priced drunk food my inner goblin shoved in her face the night before (I say that with self- love:).

Number three. Is it just me or does alcohol make everyone lazy? Whether I drank a lot or a little the night before, I wake up feeling groggy and my body feels unhealthy. I have to resist staying in my fat girl pants and watching cartoons all day.

Number four. I dread feeling like I have to drink to have a good time going out or being with my friends. None of us want to admit it, but alcohol is a social function and it does make us more relaxed. Well drinking has become the main way I spend my time with my friends and it’s gotten me thinking- can’t we be friends sober? Also, I don’t enjoy going to most of the bars on campus- they are loud (there’s too much Fetty Wap playing for my taste) people are pushing and shoving, and the butt grabs are seriously unwelcome.

Number five. Last but certainly not least. Drinking is a distraction. A distraction from the bad day I had, from the heartbreak, or from the stress and anxiety I don’t have full control over. Working out is such a great stress reliever for me personally, but as my reasons number two and three illustrate, drinking makes me less motivated to exercise. Working out is a much healthier alternative than pushing my worries aside for tomorrow morning and this is the main reason I want a break.

I know, I know. Why not just get some self-control and drink less and less often? Because my mom always said to my brother and I, “If you’re gonna do something, don’t do it half-assed.” That motivational little wonder used to only apply to doing chores, but as I grow I’m able to apply that saying to more and more areas of my life. Given, that might not be the most beautiful motivational blurb but it works. The whole function of alcohol is to relax your barriers, if I want to give up liquor then I can’t half-ass it (mom) because there is no such thing as only one drink, I need to commit.

I draw a lot of motivation for myself from a book called Meditations from the Mat. The book draws on Buddhist teachings to spiritually enhance one’s personal experience of yoga. I rarely do yoga anymore but I still read the book (shame on me). Yesterday I opened up to day 40 and a short discussion of brahmacarya which in short means moderation (if you look it up online you’ll find a lot about celibacy but there’s more to it). I was surprised by how relevant this was to me- it spoke of immoderation and imbalance due to cycles of “addiction”. Now I am certainly not addicted to alcohol but I do use it as a distraction. The book spoke of how when we tackle these habits and cycles of essentially self-doubt, we can free ourselves of anxiety, “We are no longer making up excuses for our reality.” I said I had been thinking of giving up the juice for a while, and when I read this I knew that I needed to make the leap.

In the book The Last of the Mohicans (which I did not read all the way, shame on me..again) the Native Americans called alcohol ‘fire water.’ I learned something in that book that no history class ever spoke of- that colonists gave Natives alcohol in order to weaken them. Native American’s never had ‘fire water’ until the colonists arrived. Many of them became alcoholics and thus their forces were considerably weakened. I know I can’t take a novel too seriously, but it’s something that has stuck in the back of my mind. Look at the living conditions of Native American’s today, many of them are crammed on small reservations where crime and drug addictions run rampant. But I’m veering off topic.

My point is that alcohol isn’t really good for you, in fact it’s terrible for your physical and emotional well-being.

So here’s the scoop; I’m giving up alcohol for two weeks. Why only two weeks? Because I know myself and I know that straight quitting won’t work and two weeks is a very reasonable amount of time for myself. It is a nice amount of time to get my bearings and if I realize I want a longer break, I will certainly take it. Over the course of these two weeks I’m going to reflect on my physical and emotional well-being and I’m also going to track my progress on some of my personal goals such as working out. I have set a few goals (not resolutions because that’s a lot of pressure) that are important to me and I want to see them through to completion. I believe that without the distraction of alcohol I will be a happier, more proactive person.